I've let days slip since my last post... I'm sorry if anyone miss my frequent posts, and I actually would have stuff to blog about but at the end of the night, I find myself drained and tired and all I want to do is ignore chores, sit in a corner and crochet something until my eyes close by themselves.
After 2 years of hard work and sacrifice to get the grade to get to med school, having them, passing all their little tests and wait for so long... Papa's been refused.
I ask my mom everyday to quit smocking...
So, all the stress of looking for another place to live is all gone. We're now deciding our next move, which is pretty much up to Papa.
See, we finally have some flowers around!
I ask my mom everyday to quit smocking...
So, all the stress of looking for another place to live is all gone. We're now deciding our next move, which is pretty much up to Papa.
See, we finally have some flowers around!
The plan goes like this; We'll move back to that house we were before, and he'll take the year off studying to apply next year (his grade will still count then, and he'll try making a better impression at the interview). He wants to spent time with us, which is very look forward to, and get into a better shape (which I wouldn't dislike either!).
I was preparing myself to the unknown; new city, new house, new people... But Fate takes us back to what we already knew. The major good points I see in all this is that we'll have our family close, beautiful back and front yard and lots of room..
There's a lot of things I love about this house... But I dislike the house itself, unfortunatly. We'll have to work around that.
There's also the possibility that Papa choose to enter a completely different program, and won't have any other chance of entering med school. I'm opting for the break, which we all need, a lot.
I was preparing myself to the unknown; new city, new house, new people... But Fate takes us back to what we already knew. The major good points I see in all this is that we'll have our family close, beautiful back and front yard and lots of room..
There's a lot of things I love about this house... But I dislike the house itself, unfortunatly. We'll have to work around that.
There's also the possibility that Papa choose to enter a completely different program, and won't have any other chance of entering med school. I'm opting for the break, which we all need, a lot.
My mom's appartment.
So maybe this week I'll show you all the cute little dolls and the mother's day gift I made. I also have some dresses cut out, ready to be put together for Mariann. I'm also planning her birthday gift... You're never too early when you handmake your gifts!
I do have a good news to tell you; Mariann is diaper-free the day!
Now, cheer me up, because the glass of wine wasn't good enough at it...
I do have a good news to tell you; Mariann is diaper-free the day!
Now, cheer me up, because the glass of wine wasn't good enough at it...
Logging you in...
Sorry Andréann, I meant to read this last night and got distracted. I hope I'm not too late to cheer you up.
ReplyDeleteSometimes what you want to do, what you ought to do, and what you are able to do all fall together and that's what you do. It kind of sounds like that's what's happening here. I'll bet that a year off from both school and the stress of worrying about school will do Papa a lot of good, and being out of your apartment and near your families will make you a lot happier too. Just being able to let the kids play in the back yard will make your days so much less stressful, let alone taking them for walks in the woods or just being able to sit and stare out across the river when you need to unwind.
I know what you mean about not liking the house itself, but it's not a terrible problem. I don't like our house. I didn't like it when Ian and I moved in 24 years ago, and I still don't like it: it's dark, the rooms are badly laid out, the street is too noisy, the neighbourhood is dull, etc. But a house is not the same as a home, and I like the home we have here even if I'd rather we lived in a different house!
Great news about M. having her first no-diaper day. How does she feel about it?
And if I haven't said it enough, I never get tired of seeing photos of your family. The one of M. looking at the ladybug was my favourite, but I love the one of Merrick and your mom, too.
sweet, sweet girl...
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your misfortune...
but, somrthing that seems like a hardship today could end up being what is best for everyone in the end. Maybe not immediately, but soon enough..
for example, I was ONE credit short of graduating college. i couldn't because I missed a passing mark on a state standardized test by 3 points. 3 points! those 3 points changed my life. If I would have passed, I could have been teaching in a public school, probably burned out by now, and hating my career choice. I would have never discovered waldorf education, probably!
Your children are beautiful...you are beautiful, talented, and full of heart. You will all get to where you're supposed to be....sometimes things just take time:) No doubt, the universe is unfolding as it should, friend:) xoxoxoxo
I have a personal philosophy that everything happens for a reason...and for the BETTER! Perhaps this is to challenge Papa's resolve. Maybe there was something about the interview that caused the interviewers to feel he wasn't fully ready yet? Another year would give you not only a bit of a break, but also help him to cement his dream - to spit and polish himself and really feel it in his heart that he wants to pursue it.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like a bit of a crossroads, and thankfully you all have a bit of time between now and when you'd all need to revisit the idea again next year.
I know that somehow it will all work out as it should :D Hang in there!