Monday, March 14, 2011

Being Real.

I use my real name online. Andréann. It's simple, quite unique in the English blogsphere, and, well. It is me. It's my birthname. My real name ends with a "e", but I took it off when I was 8, when I took off my father's last name as well. My mom's name ends with an "e", and she took it off to. The little girl that I was back then wanted to do the same, because it was oh so cool and unique. (And I won't write my name with an e anytime soon!) I also use my children real names.

I tried to come up with a cool nickname several times, for forums or such (like Maman Tattoo for craftster, or Zombie Strawberries for Heavenly Hair) But I always come back to using my real name. I don't think it's by lack of imagination, thought. 

It feels better to me. I blog to show off what I do and what my kids do. I don't mean I don't understand why some people use only initials for their kids' name and even paste hearts on the face when they post pics. I do. But as long as I feel somehow safe around here, I'll stick with our names.

What is very real right now is how stressed I am about the future. We. Don't. Know. what's next. (by next, I mean July)

(It's a car.)

Papa is applying to med school. Three of them. He can be accepted to all of them, or none at all. Scenario 1: He's accepted right away (meaning we know where we go in May) we look for a house there. Scenario 2: He's put on the waiting list (meaning we know where we go mid-July) we moved to our old place and wait. (Yeah, there is lots of waiting involved in this) Scenario 3: He's refused and he choose some other career (engineering, he says) and we're back to square one as to where we go.

I'll emphases the where: Either we have 3 months to look around for a house or appart 3, 7 or 8h of car away from where we are now, or we have a month. I know it will be a lot stressful for us. Just overall looking to buy our first house is stressful... And we'll have such a short time frame to do so! And where? What neighbourhood? Will the place's school commission will be okay with homeschooling? Will I be able to buy the healthiest food for my kids there? Will we actually stay there long? Or do we go back here? What if Papa doesn't like med school at all and we all have to go back? What if I end up hating the place?....

Oh well, I'm glad I've vented out a bit.
please tell me looking for a house is not that stressful!
and I'll try to believe you.

6 comments:

  1. Where are you looking to go? QC, Trois-Rivières, or Montréal?

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  2. We'll be singing the papers and getting the keys for our first house Friday.

    Looking at houses isn't stressful at all, it's actually fun! It's all the paperwork and money that goes into buying a house that was stressful.

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  3. I've always wondered why your name didn't have an 'e'. Now I know!

    My advice about buying a house is WAIT. Don't immediately buy a house in a city you don't know. It's better to rent for a few months or a year (and put up with the horror of moving twice) while you look around and get to know the city. When you find an area you think you could buy a house in, take the kids a few times and just look around. How are the people? How do they treat you? Can you get there on public transit, and can you get around while you're there? These are all things that are so hard to see until you're there.

    While the uncertainty must be stressful, the possibility of greater crafting/Pagan contacts must be exciting.

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  4. those are all big life changes for anyone, let alone when you have such little ones.

    I wish your sig.other well in getting accepted to med school, and hope that in a year you look back on this post and realize that everything turned out even better than you could have hoped! Warmly,

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  5. I know just how stressful it can be when you don't know exactly where you will be in a few months. We've been there a couple of times before. Just like Wulf said, I would recommend not buying a house right away if you are in a place new to you. Rent for a while until you figure out which area you would like to live in. You won't be able to tell if it is a good fit just from a few visits. I speak from experience on this one. :) We've moved from Ontario to Seattle and even though we have chosen one of the best school districts , we've somehow landed in the worst school. The neighborhood on one side of the school where we were renting was nice and looked like a great place, but on the other side of the school was like a different world. Luckily we were just renting, so we could leave after a year and by then we knew the area well enough to know where we wanted to buy a house.
    I wish you luck and vent away whenever the uncertainty of your future is making you stressed! :)

    oh, i have sent you a pm on ravelry earlier...

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  6. Good luck. We've never bought but i hear you. Renting alone can see mlike a headache! xo m.

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