I don't have a better picture. But it's there, right on my left hip.
My smallest, isolated tattoo.
I got it as a "friendship" tattoo when I was 17. It was my second tattoo and the girl's first (how she was shacking!). As it often arrives with friendship tattoo, I lost contact with that girl now. I know what's she up to and all, but I deliberately went in another direction in life. Do I regret my shamrock tattoo? Absolutely not.
Any tattoos is a bookmark of your life. I was it this crazy abusive relationship, falling in love with another guy, and playing mommy with that girl. Because she had a very f*cked up life, I'll spare you the details. But it led to very low self-esteem and emotional addiction... I tried to be there to spare her some problems, and it ended up not really safe for me in the end.
Fast forward 4 years and I'm still the very same person that will give a hand and try to spare every one's feeling. But now, I take account of mine, too. How much healthier! I'm very pleased of how much I grew in those years, and glad I have what I ultimately wanted earlier then I thought!
So today, while I did nothing green except dressing Merrick in it (Mariann doesn't have any green piece of clothing...) I'll think about those time all I was doing was drinking beer and listening to Flogging Molly and Dropkick Murphy. Because that's the only explanation for the choice of design, I'm not Irish at all!
I take people under my wing too, and went through a similar situation with a past friend, who eventually I had to remove from my life before she dragged me under with her. Never an easy choice. We don't celebrate St. Patrick, since he was an @$$hole, but we are doing "Irish Heritage Day" today :-)
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