Saturday, March 6, 2010

Being/Becoming a Mother...part 1

I felt the urge to become a mother at a really young age. I was really tom boy, more playing with cars than barbies (I mostly had younger cousins) and haven't wear a dress (with my consent) before the age of 15. Still I was happy to be a girl, because I would grow into a woman that will be able to give life. And that made feel special.

I knew I'd have enough love to give, and enough patience to give birth to another human being and be there for him/her the rest of his/her life. I know I wasn't scared. I've heard that many many woman are scared while being pregnant, but somehow I [almost] never was. And I've never doubt I would have children who would have feel loved, all their life. If sometime I doubted I could take another night without sleep, another hour of crying while trying to put my daugther to nap, those fears didn't last long and didn't matter at the end. I see now a really happy and healthy and curious toddler that smiles most of the time, laugh out load often and still cry when it's time for nap and bed.

The first time I was sure I was pregnant was a pure moment of joy. I was so thrilled that a life could grow inside me! I felt so lucky, as we were trying for only 2 months, when I hear woman that hopes for years and never get the chance. I was so grateful for life, and having my boyfriend with me made it even more better. We've blown away midwifes, nurse, and social worker (those last 2 were imposed by the government since we were 18) by our will to form a family, our joy to become parents (we saw the social worker twice, she decided we didn't need her...) And I began this great adventure of becoming parent with total trust in life.

Even before getting pregnant I was ready to change of state. From the young woman to the mother. I really felt a need to give all that love I had. I never had a father, and I felt the urge to create a real family around me. be continued

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I'm a 23 yr old mommy of two little pixies, sharing my life with my best friend. We live in La Belle Province, French is our first language. In the middle of nursing and caring for a toddler's need, I sew, draw, paint, and take pictures to tell. We also struggle to live an healthy life, apparently surrounded by people that doesn't care much, and we're on budget, too!


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